This Teaching is different than the first two Teachings in that it contains content from two sources: Jesus’ literal communication (with David translating) and David sharing with you from his life and heart with Jesus’ guidance.
Self-Departure: Leaving for a Foreign Land
I opened my eyes and Jesus said:
You once believed. You once had faith. You once said to me, “I love you and I'll never leave.” What happened to you? This I ask you to reflect on. In honesty, without any form of escaping from your feelings, please look and explain to me what happened that you say, “I no longer believe.”
I say to all of you, keep your faith in all that is good. Do not consent to the selling of that which in your innermost heart you know is good and true. The truth lives in you. It lives in the soul of your being. Listen to the sound of it. The voice of purity will guide you. The loss of conscience is the loss of organization from within. Your soul yearns to evolve and touch God. Our Father is close and yet you pretend as if He is afar.
It is the way of a broken communion that leads to disorganization of the soul. Seek out the place in which a communion was broken and heal from that fracture. In doing this your life will become clear. You yourself deprogram the program of life. Life is in the communions of love, strength, wisdom, joy, and the communions of the earth. It is in broken trust and loss of love that the process of the life program of faith is entering into decay.
Hear my words and renew your faith in yourself. Believe that there is more to come to you that is good. Do not let rage, disappointment or desperation direct you. Be still. Listen to your heart underneath the disappointment.
Have you ever asked yourself, "How on earth did I get here?” We, at times in life, unknowingly let our lives slip down into an abyss. Suddenly we say, “How did I get here?” As we all know, it doesn't happen overnight.
Jesus continued with the beatitudes:
Blessed are those who do hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled.
The Aramaic for righteousness is a condition of internal rightness as well as its reflection in civil life. This is what we want, to return to internal rightness. A place we call home in the heart.
At this point in the process of the Teachings, you should realize that you have escaped for years and have not hungered or thirsted for the return home. The Aramaic Jesus used was:
Tubwayhun layleyn d’kaphneen.
Blessed are those who do hunger.
The Aramaic tells us that those who are so yearning and wanting for what is right would endure late into the night to be fulfilled. If, however, we do not feel this way (allowing the escape to go on) then the risk of departure is increased tenfold.
After escaping for some years, we find ourselves preparing to leave for a foreign land. (Please remember the 2nd Teaching, The Escape Artist)
We set off to a place where we can live a false life and be comfortable with it - at least for a while. We leave home. In the leaving it becomes necessary to justify the action therefore we must create a viewpoint of life that allows this. We invent a philosophy that will easily let us do whatever we want, that’s the ticket to boarding the plane to leave to a foreign land. We must abandon all hope that life, as it was in the past, was not meaningful so that the conscience does not call us back. We creatively see it from every angle so that to leave to a far-off strange place would be far better than where we were.
The Cause of the First Escape in History is the Work of the Archangel named Lucifer[i]
Jesus says Forty Generations Later:
For Lucifer to fall[ii], he had to fail in the meeting of the judgment[iii] of the word, character, and heart. From there he altered his conscience so that he would not feel the directive of true conscience.
Understanding Lucifer
In the religious sense, Lucifer is the Archangel who fell from Gods' grace, tempted Eve to fall and thus started the suffering of mankind. Some believe that he literally tempted Eve with an apple, or you may have other insights or feelings about what happened in the beginning. I ask you to consider the story of “the fall” as a symbol. “The fall” is the part of us which compels us to act selfishly; to feel cold towards others. Hurtful and manipulative in order to gain for oneself. Arrogant, deceitful, dishonest to protect the ego or whatever it takes to hide the true, real reality of the inner life.
The judgment of conscience through the Word means that when something rings true, a bell goes off in our head. This eventually helps to direct us. The judgment of character is our ability to face ourselves and to adjust our direction in society. The adjustment comes as a necessity when we are challenged. This does not mean to give up. It means not losing your wits under changeable circumstances. The judgment of heart is the heart and soul of our “self,” caring in a true and pure way for others. Can we rise to the bottom of someone else's hell to love them and support their healing?
In order to get to the bottom of someone’s hell you have to rise up to a higher perspective. Whoever Lucifer is, he failed in this process. He justified his direction with Eve and crossed over. He, in effect, deprogrammed God’s program for himself. He began his departure to a foreign land as a foreign place within himself. The original program, I believe, was to educate Adam and Eve so that they could grow to becoming God's true children.
The self-departure is the process in which fallen Lucifer’s program: the process of deception, denial, defining right values as irrelevant to life, needs met now, placing love on the sexual plane only, temporary gratification, allowing anger to make choices in your life, the promise of love through sensationalism, etc., grows in strength in our character. Where did we learn this process? First, it is passed on through the lineage. Secondly, at times, we teach each other to disbelieve in themselves. How many times can you recall that your vision was reduced to dust by someone else? How many times was your innermost ambition criticized until you let it go? Or you were told, "You'll never make it." We teach each other to be hopeless. This degrading is a fowl vein in families where invalidation of the children occurs too often. Correction of character is one thing. Dream breaking is another.
There are many parents, teachers, friends who encourage belief in oneself. The positive words of these people can set a child on the right path. It provides the hope to have hope. For every single invalidation, we need seven validations. If the invalidation is propagated and you start to feel like, “the hell with it all,” you may pack up and leave.
A subtle distortion develops internally in the soul with constant invalidation in a child. This distortion will show itself in many ways as an adult. Anxiety or panic attacks are often symptoms of unresolved distortion in the soul residing there since childhood. This will cause you to be more prone to the temptation of desires that come from the broken self unless the cycle is offset.
There are situations when you are in a group structure, a church or self-growth community, which assists you to achieve a certain level of growth but fails to support your further development. If you stay with the group without seeking the additional help you need for your other development, you may risk self-departure. You will do this in such a way when you tell yourself, “This group has helped me overcome these difficulties and has helped me grow this far. Perhaps over time, my other developmental needs will heal themselves.” But your other needs may not be fulfilled or healed if you ignore them, and you may continue to create the illusion that your growth is advancing when in actuality it is not.
Reasons
Growth is progressive thus different people bring us different elements of challenge to accelerate our growth. A co-addictive bond is a problem, as discussed in the first Teaching Honesty. Thus, this state of relationship could represent the foreign land and you may need to re-evaluate this dependency. The return home would then be to find your true self. This is not meant to be an excuse for breaking vows or easily stepping out of a commitment. It is meant for you to honestly look at the reasons for which you made a choice. Only you know.
The essence is this: Wherever you are, be honest, do not make up stories to stay or leave and try not to lose your ideal sense of life because of discouragement. If we really unravel, we just might pack our bags and make ready our journey to the other side where we think “the grass is greener.”
We must be protective of our newfound freedom (which is really an illusion) on the way to the new place. To protect is to not let anyone or anything in, that is, into my heart. If, and that really means if, I do, then my true motive will be discovered. In fact, it will be shown to me, as I do not really know what compels me to leave, except anger. I must turn around, however. I must turn back and leave the land of waste, where I’ll lose my soul. It was resentment that brought me here. I must return home and face my inner self.
Two thousand years ago Jesus said:
Go, sell all that you have and give to the poor...
Then come, follow me.
He also said:
I have come to give sight to the blind.
Selling all that you have is an act of letting go, a crossing. It interrupts the deprogramming (the process by which you talk yourself out of true values) and the self-departure schedule of the fallen Luciferian process. The selling of all that you have could be literal or symbolic. It must speak to you. Regaining sight is a process of being honest, telling the truth to yourself. This was discussed in the first Teaching, Honesty.
The mindset of fallen Lucifer operates in all of us, in varying degrees, depending on how much power we give that voice. At one time we believed in living for others, in purity and in kindness. If one has justified their wrong actions long enough, they will become more tasty food for the vultures of the dark realm. It is the dark realm that teaches you not to believe anymore. "Forget it! You can’t be truly good, nor can anyone else." This is where you deprogram yourself. The program was love, mercy, kindness and caring for others, but now we feel “I’m first” and your anger acts out manifested through preparing to depart. This state of being that angry prepares us to “skip town” and head for the so-called “grass that’s greener on the other side.” This is an illusion.
The Double Tongue
The classic understanding of Lucifer, in the fallen state, is that two things are contradictory to each other in the same speech:
Did God really say not to eat of the tree of knowledge, of good and evil? That if you eat it, you will die. No, no, let me explain.
Thus, the snake's forked tongue comes. He tells you both that you are not supposed to eat (from God) and that you should eat. Two messages from one mouth, this is the double tongue.
In our lives we must be careful not to scramble the minds of the innocent like the predators of young children who prey on their innocence. A predator will lure a trusting child to come into his car where he will abuse him. This is how hearts are broken and lives are destroyed. We are horrified at the destruction of innocence in this way. Yet are we aware of how we destroy innocence in small subtle ways? As we pray for a happy outcome for all our children, let us match our actions to support our prayers. People, at times, will say, “I love you” to each other and at the same time demonstrate disrespectful behavior towards one another. Our words should be complimented by our physical actions.
An angry parent who speaks loving words to a child and then beats them is instilling a confused message about acceptance and pain. The confusion is in the double message being conveyed. We hear words of goodness in a tone of damnation. Eventually the nervous system becomes exhausted and you're prone to fallen Lucifer's voice.
Please look at yourself and ask the question, Am I prone from internal confusion? Do I accept rough and near violent affection because I saw or learned it as a child? A firm voice of correction is good, however, not in the context where we learn that good and pain are two sides of the same coin.
The Voice of Fallen Lucifer
Spoken words carry meaning. There is an entire encrypted message in the tone and texture of the voice. The voices we listen to may affect us more than we think. Our values, perceptions, and emotions are derived from the degree to which we internalize the voices we heard. The voices guide us to being healthy or to propagate a damaging life. An Italian boy was told at age ten that he wouldn’t succeed in school because he was from a minority ethnic class. The voice penetrated the boy, and it took years for him to unscramble the cause for his inability to find success in his work.
What is the Voice of Fallen Lucifer? His voice is the product of his own process of self-deprogramming and self-departure. Originally the Day Star, as he is called in the Bible, was an Angel who was to serve and educate Adam and Eve. Apparently, he didn't do such a good job. He instead re-educated them according to his own flawed and convenient interpretation of God's will. Why would a high being, with such great responsibility, mess up in a big way?
The Force of Love
The only human need that defies all reason, logic, common sense, survival, and the primal will to live, is the need to obtain love. People go crazy in an effort to have and possess love. Some people are driven even to kill to possess someone, thinking it's the will of love and that's how to get it. But they're wrong. There is no good news in this process. The force of true love and the force of the compromised mind and broken heart oppose each other but desire the same thing: to be loved.
The fallen Luciferian psychology is that we react to situations in life to always get ahead, to advance me, protect me, look good and keep honor at any expense, and thus hurting others is okay. Yet God's process for us is that we never hurt others to advance ourselves but that we bear the pain to learn to love and forgive. We say “yes” or “no” without pretense. That we treat others as we would have them treat us. That we enter into the lives of others serving them and helping them even if we are shouldering their cross for a while.
The Loss of My Real, Honest Self
The shift from ideals such as honesty, compassion, sincere relationships, helping one in need, believing in the good in people, encouraging self-confidence and feeling for the suffering of others, are replaced by the appearance of swindling, cold heartedness, and disposable relationships. Walking by someone in need and excusing oneself. Hearing of tragedy and saying, "It's not my problem." Invalidating people and then thinking you are okay with all of this. This is clearly the case of having left for a foreign land. Leaving for this land of nothing is preceded by the loss of self, the self that God could live in. Self-deprogramming and the departure is a result of the great escape, the escape from selling all that you have (which in this context is the attachment to false security and the facade that you are doing well).
There is no exception for religious people in the leadership of spiritual groups either. All of us are prone to escape. The escape may not manifest as an actual life in the gutter, but as eloquent sermons followed by hurting the congregation with gossip or demeaning comments fueled by a superiority complex. Of course, this can happen in any organization which sustains their power not by love but by psychological and emotional control.
Groups as Valuable
Groups can be positive, offering community, a sense of belonging and fellowship. It's natural to want to be part of something, whether you belong to a Church, Temple, or spiritual retreat. Within groups we have infrastructure to support life, where we can find meaningful relationships. In spiritual groups we may find spiritual clarity and an elder whose guidance can help our journey of spiritual growth. Perhaps the most important aspect of being part of a group (if it extends itself into society and is part of people's lives, not altogether isolated) is the building of community.
Always be insightful. The first Teaching, Honesty, enables us to identify what's really going on. If we consent to the power of self-incrimination, self-persecution, invalidation from group members and join in blaming others, you may find yourself exiting the truth of yourself. We must be able to distinguish the thread of truth from our criticizers and find our internal judge to correct ourselves. In addition, we must be able to discern that which belongs to the criticizer who wishes to displace his shame onto another.
All of us want to heal. We need to realize that sight is being given back to us. “I was blind to my unhealthy patterns. I could not see inside my heart (I was scared). I escaped the entire process of facing my reality and ended up accepting a new program called, I don't believe in anything anymore and I will live a false identity regardless of whether it hurts me or others.”
Remember: Self-Departure is a result of the failure to practice the 1st Teaching, Honesty; failure of realizing the 2nd Teaching, Escaping, wearing the mask of pretense, and now entering into the writing of your own principle, as false as it may be, to allow the denial to continue. It continues to where you say that “right is wrong” and “wrong is right” all the way to your own self-made hell. However, when you realize this, you are now ready to come home.
The result of the process leading to self-departure almost always results in trauma and co-addictive behavior. The initial impact and matrix of the co-addictive behavior usually begins in early childhood. It progresses, in a hidden way, until it reveals itself in the teenage years.
What are the probable signs of the traumatized individual?
-Chronic abdominal distress.
-Migraines
-Chronic lethargy.
-The need to be in control.
-Overcompensation with perfectionism.
-Road rage
-Chronic breaking laws (driving violations, small thieving)
-High risk taking.
-Poor attention span.
Possible traits of behavior indicating co-addiction:
The next Teaching, Forgiveness, is the threshold of freedom. In Forgiveness we step into the grace of Gods' love and the clearing away of the storm of our self-condemnation, accusation, and shame.
However, these symptoms will not simply go away through the implementation of forgiveness without going through forgiveness on the foundation of being honest about your life, stopping the escape artist and believing in values. And especially believing in yourself. This will give you the strength to approach deeper healing. I believe that a faith based, qualified therapist can offer a lot toward personal healing, if needed. Whether or not you wish to seek out a counselor is something that you will have to reflect upon. There is no shame in asking for help.
I invite you to step forward.
Come to the embrace of the Father.
Surrender to God.
Ask for forgiveness.
Remember the whole point is to arrive at the beginning of life, a new life in faith and trust.
ENDNOTES:
[i] The fallen archangel is not necessarily a spiritual entity. It may be the slope of self-deception or being fooled by cleaver words leading to one’s downfall.
[ii] The impression isn’t the literal definition of fall, as having dropped down. It is a reference to a breach in our growth process, so a misdirection of the mind occurs.
[iii] Judgement is not to be mistaken with shaming. Its purpose is to reveal what needs to be worked on; an awakening of a conscious state to realize the distance between where you are and where you should be.
Self-Departure: Leaving for a Foreign Land
I opened my eyes and Jesus said:
You once believed. You once had faith. You once said to me, “I love you and I'll never leave.” What happened to you? This I ask you to reflect on. In honesty, without any form of escaping from your feelings, please look and explain to me what happened that you say, “I no longer believe.”
I say to all of you, keep your faith in all that is good. Do not consent to the selling of that which in your innermost heart you know is good and true. The truth lives in you. It lives in the soul of your being. Listen to the sound of it. The voice of purity will guide you. The loss of conscience is the loss of organization from within. Your soul yearns to evolve and touch God. Our Father is close and yet you pretend as if He is afar.
It is the way of a broken communion that leads to disorganization of the soul. Seek out the place in which a communion was broken and heal from that fracture. In doing this your life will become clear. You yourself deprogram the program of life. Life is in the communions of love, strength, wisdom, joy, and the communions of the earth. It is in broken trust and loss of love that the process of the life program of faith is entering into decay.
Hear my words and renew your faith in yourself. Believe that there is more to come to you that is good. Do not let rage, disappointment or desperation direct you. Be still. Listen to your heart underneath the disappointment.
Have you ever asked yourself, "How on earth did I get here?” We, at times in life, unknowingly let our lives slip down into an abyss. Suddenly we say, “How did I get here?” As we all know, it doesn't happen overnight.
Jesus continued with the beatitudes:
Blessed are those who do hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled.
The Aramaic for righteousness is a condition of internal rightness as well as its reflection in civil life. This is what we want, to return to internal rightness. A place we call home in the heart.
At this point in the process of the Teachings, you should realize that you have escaped for years and have not hungered or thirsted for the return home. The Aramaic Jesus used was:
Tubwayhun layleyn d’kaphneen.
Blessed are those who do hunger.
The Aramaic tells us that those who are so yearning and wanting for what is right would endure late into the night to be fulfilled. If, however, we do not feel this way (allowing the escape to go on) then the risk of departure is increased tenfold.
After escaping for some years, we find ourselves preparing to leave for a foreign land. (Please remember the 2nd Teaching, The Escape Artist)
We set off to a place where we can live a false life and be comfortable with it - at least for a while. We leave home. In the leaving it becomes necessary to justify the action therefore we must create a viewpoint of life that allows this. We invent a philosophy that will easily let us do whatever we want, that’s the ticket to boarding the plane to leave to a foreign land. We must abandon all hope that life, as it was in the past, was not meaningful so that the conscience does not call us back. We creatively see it from every angle so that to leave to a far-off strange place would be far better than where we were.
The Cause of the First Escape in History is the Work of the Archangel named Lucifer[i]
Jesus says Forty Generations Later:
For Lucifer to fall[ii], he had to fail in the meeting of the judgment[iii] of the word, character, and heart. From there he altered his conscience so that he would not feel the directive of true conscience.
Understanding Lucifer
In the religious sense, Lucifer is the Archangel who fell from Gods' grace, tempted Eve to fall and thus started the suffering of mankind. Some believe that he literally tempted Eve with an apple, or you may have other insights or feelings about what happened in the beginning. I ask you to consider the story of “the fall” as a symbol. “The fall” is the part of us which compels us to act selfishly; to feel cold towards others. Hurtful and manipulative in order to gain for oneself. Arrogant, deceitful, dishonest to protect the ego or whatever it takes to hide the true, real reality of the inner life.
The judgment of conscience through the Word means that when something rings true, a bell goes off in our head. This eventually helps to direct us. The judgment of character is our ability to face ourselves and to adjust our direction in society. The adjustment comes as a necessity when we are challenged. This does not mean to give up. It means not losing your wits under changeable circumstances. The judgment of heart is the heart and soul of our “self,” caring in a true and pure way for others. Can we rise to the bottom of someone else's hell to love them and support their healing?
In order to get to the bottom of someone’s hell you have to rise up to a higher perspective. Whoever Lucifer is, he failed in this process. He justified his direction with Eve and crossed over. He, in effect, deprogrammed God’s program for himself. He began his departure to a foreign land as a foreign place within himself. The original program, I believe, was to educate Adam and Eve so that they could grow to becoming God's true children.
The self-departure is the process in which fallen Lucifer’s program: the process of deception, denial, defining right values as irrelevant to life, needs met now, placing love on the sexual plane only, temporary gratification, allowing anger to make choices in your life, the promise of love through sensationalism, etc., grows in strength in our character. Where did we learn this process? First, it is passed on through the lineage. Secondly, at times, we teach each other to disbelieve in themselves. How many times can you recall that your vision was reduced to dust by someone else? How many times was your innermost ambition criticized until you let it go? Or you were told, "You'll never make it." We teach each other to be hopeless. This degrading is a fowl vein in families where invalidation of the children occurs too often. Correction of character is one thing. Dream breaking is another.
There are many parents, teachers, friends who encourage belief in oneself. The positive words of these people can set a child on the right path. It provides the hope to have hope. For every single invalidation, we need seven validations. If the invalidation is propagated and you start to feel like, “the hell with it all,” you may pack up and leave.
A subtle distortion develops internally in the soul with constant invalidation in a child. This distortion will show itself in many ways as an adult. Anxiety or panic attacks are often symptoms of unresolved distortion in the soul residing there since childhood. This will cause you to be more prone to the temptation of desires that come from the broken self unless the cycle is offset.
There are situations when you are in a group structure, a church or self-growth community, which assists you to achieve a certain level of growth but fails to support your further development. If you stay with the group without seeking the additional help you need for your other development, you may risk self-departure. You will do this in such a way when you tell yourself, “This group has helped me overcome these difficulties and has helped me grow this far. Perhaps over time, my other developmental needs will heal themselves.” But your other needs may not be fulfilled or healed if you ignore them, and you may continue to create the illusion that your growth is advancing when in actuality it is not.
Reasons
Growth is progressive thus different people bring us different elements of challenge to accelerate our growth. A co-addictive bond is a problem, as discussed in the first Teaching Honesty. Thus, this state of relationship could represent the foreign land and you may need to re-evaluate this dependency. The return home would then be to find your true self. This is not meant to be an excuse for breaking vows or easily stepping out of a commitment. It is meant for you to honestly look at the reasons for which you made a choice. Only you know.
The essence is this: Wherever you are, be honest, do not make up stories to stay or leave and try not to lose your ideal sense of life because of discouragement. If we really unravel, we just might pack our bags and make ready our journey to the other side where we think “the grass is greener.”
We must be protective of our newfound freedom (which is really an illusion) on the way to the new place. To protect is to not let anyone or anything in, that is, into my heart. If, and that really means if, I do, then my true motive will be discovered. In fact, it will be shown to me, as I do not really know what compels me to leave, except anger. I must turn around, however. I must turn back and leave the land of waste, where I’ll lose my soul. It was resentment that brought me here. I must return home and face my inner self.
Two thousand years ago Jesus said:
Go, sell all that you have and give to the poor...
Then come, follow me.
He also said:
I have come to give sight to the blind.
Selling all that you have is an act of letting go, a crossing. It interrupts the deprogramming (the process by which you talk yourself out of true values) and the self-departure schedule of the fallen Luciferian process. The selling of all that you have could be literal or symbolic. It must speak to you. Regaining sight is a process of being honest, telling the truth to yourself. This was discussed in the first Teaching, Honesty.
The mindset of fallen Lucifer operates in all of us, in varying degrees, depending on how much power we give that voice. At one time we believed in living for others, in purity and in kindness. If one has justified their wrong actions long enough, they will become more tasty food for the vultures of the dark realm. It is the dark realm that teaches you not to believe anymore. "Forget it! You can’t be truly good, nor can anyone else." This is where you deprogram yourself. The program was love, mercy, kindness and caring for others, but now we feel “I’m first” and your anger acts out manifested through preparing to depart. This state of being that angry prepares us to “skip town” and head for the so-called “grass that’s greener on the other side.” This is an illusion.
The Double Tongue
The classic understanding of Lucifer, in the fallen state, is that two things are contradictory to each other in the same speech:
Did God really say not to eat of the tree of knowledge, of good and evil? That if you eat it, you will die. No, no, let me explain.
Thus, the snake's forked tongue comes. He tells you both that you are not supposed to eat (from God) and that you should eat. Two messages from one mouth, this is the double tongue.
In our lives we must be careful not to scramble the minds of the innocent like the predators of young children who prey on their innocence. A predator will lure a trusting child to come into his car where he will abuse him. This is how hearts are broken and lives are destroyed. We are horrified at the destruction of innocence in this way. Yet are we aware of how we destroy innocence in small subtle ways? As we pray for a happy outcome for all our children, let us match our actions to support our prayers. People, at times, will say, “I love you” to each other and at the same time demonstrate disrespectful behavior towards one another. Our words should be complimented by our physical actions.
An angry parent who speaks loving words to a child and then beats them is instilling a confused message about acceptance and pain. The confusion is in the double message being conveyed. We hear words of goodness in a tone of damnation. Eventually the nervous system becomes exhausted and you're prone to fallen Lucifer's voice.
Please look at yourself and ask the question, Am I prone from internal confusion? Do I accept rough and near violent affection because I saw or learned it as a child? A firm voice of correction is good, however, not in the context where we learn that good and pain are two sides of the same coin.
The Voice of Fallen Lucifer
Spoken words carry meaning. There is an entire encrypted message in the tone and texture of the voice. The voices we listen to may affect us more than we think. Our values, perceptions, and emotions are derived from the degree to which we internalize the voices we heard. The voices guide us to being healthy or to propagate a damaging life. An Italian boy was told at age ten that he wouldn’t succeed in school because he was from a minority ethnic class. The voice penetrated the boy, and it took years for him to unscramble the cause for his inability to find success in his work.
What is the Voice of Fallen Lucifer? His voice is the product of his own process of self-deprogramming and self-departure. Originally the Day Star, as he is called in the Bible, was an Angel who was to serve and educate Adam and Eve. Apparently, he didn't do such a good job. He instead re-educated them according to his own flawed and convenient interpretation of God's will. Why would a high being, with such great responsibility, mess up in a big way?
The Force of Love
The only human need that defies all reason, logic, common sense, survival, and the primal will to live, is the need to obtain love. People go crazy in an effort to have and possess love. Some people are driven even to kill to possess someone, thinking it's the will of love and that's how to get it. But they're wrong. There is no good news in this process. The force of true love and the force of the compromised mind and broken heart oppose each other but desire the same thing: to be loved.
The fallen Luciferian psychology is that we react to situations in life to always get ahead, to advance me, protect me, look good and keep honor at any expense, and thus hurting others is okay. Yet God's process for us is that we never hurt others to advance ourselves but that we bear the pain to learn to love and forgive. We say “yes” or “no” without pretense. That we treat others as we would have them treat us. That we enter into the lives of others serving them and helping them even if we are shouldering their cross for a while.
The Loss of My Real, Honest Self
The shift from ideals such as honesty, compassion, sincere relationships, helping one in need, believing in the good in people, encouraging self-confidence and feeling for the suffering of others, are replaced by the appearance of swindling, cold heartedness, and disposable relationships. Walking by someone in need and excusing oneself. Hearing of tragedy and saying, "It's not my problem." Invalidating people and then thinking you are okay with all of this. This is clearly the case of having left for a foreign land. Leaving for this land of nothing is preceded by the loss of self, the self that God could live in. Self-deprogramming and the departure is a result of the great escape, the escape from selling all that you have (which in this context is the attachment to false security and the facade that you are doing well).
There is no exception for religious people in the leadership of spiritual groups either. All of us are prone to escape. The escape may not manifest as an actual life in the gutter, but as eloquent sermons followed by hurting the congregation with gossip or demeaning comments fueled by a superiority complex. Of course, this can happen in any organization which sustains their power not by love but by psychological and emotional control.
Groups as Valuable
Groups can be positive, offering community, a sense of belonging and fellowship. It's natural to want to be part of something, whether you belong to a Church, Temple, or spiritual retreat. Within groups we have infrastructure to support life, where we can find meaningful relationships. In spiritual groups we may find spiritual clarity and an elder whose guidance can help our journey of spiritual growth. Perhaps the most important aspect of being part of a group (if it extends itself into society and is part of people's lives, not altogether isolated) is the building of community.
Always be insightful. The first Teaching, Honesty, enables us to identify what's really going on. If we consent to the power of self-incrimination, self-persecution, invalidation from group members and join in blaming others, you may find yourself exiting the truth of yourself. We must be able to distinguish the thread of truth from our criticizers and find our internal judge to correct ourselves. In addition, we must be able to discern that which belongs to the criticizer who wishes to displace his shame onto another.
All of us want to heal. We need to realize that sight is being given back to us. “I was blind to my unhealthy patterns. I could not see inside my heart (I was scared). I escaped the entire process of facing my reality and ended up accepting a new program called, I don't believe in anything anymore and I will live a false identity regardless of whether it hurts me or others.”
Remember: Self-Departure is a result of the failure to practice the 1st Teaching, Honesty; failure of realizing the 2nd Teaching, Escaping, wearing the mask of pretense, and now entering into the writing of your own principle, as false as it may be, to allow the denial to continue. It continues to where you say that “right is wrong” and “wrong is right” all the way to your own self-made hell. However, when you realize this, you are now ready to come home.
The result of the process leading to self-departure almost always results in trauma and co-addictive behavior. The initial impact and matrix of the co-addictive behavior usually begins in early childhood. It progresses, in a hidden way, until it reveals itself in the teenage years.
What are the probable signs of the traumatized individual?
- Chronic depression, anxiety & phobias.
- Compulsive behaviors.
- Inability to express anger.
- Inappropriate anger (rages).
- Inappropriate guilt (shame).
- Self-abuse, mutilation, or suicidal thoughts.
- Periods of confusion.
- Sleep problems.
- Physical complaints.
- Feelings of suffocation.
- Failure to heed your own body’s signals.
- Increased anxiety during relaxation exercises.
- Poor/distorted body image.
- Numbing.
- Substance abuse.
- Health problems:
-Chronic abdominal distress.
-Migraines
-Chronic lethargy.
- Behavioral issues:
-The need to be in control.
-Overcompensation with perfectionism.
-Road rage
-Chronic breaking laws (driving violations, small thieving)
-High risk taking.
-Poor attention span.
Possible traits of behavior indicating co-addiction:
- Very uncomfortable being alone.
- Cannot sense yourself or your identity separate from the definition of your spouse. You feel as if you are nothing without his/her definition of you.
- You constantly seek approval from others.
- You always question whether you are lovable, capable or worthy.
- You have a history of failed relationships or cannot sustain a close emotional bond with your spouse unless it is distorted by cooperative dysfunction.
- A tendency to seek gratification now and cannot wait.
- You fear failure.
- You feel that the right relationship will finally make you happy as a person.
- Your self-esteem improves when you are involved in a relationship and drops sharply when you are alone.
The next Teaching, Forgiveness, is the threshold of freedom. In Forgiveness we step into the grace of Gods' love and the clearing away of the storm of our self-condemnation, accusation, and shame.
However, these symptoms will not simply go away through the implementation of forgiveness without going through forgiveness on the foundation of being honest about your life, stopping the escape artist and believing in values. And especially believing in yourself. This will give you the strength to approach deeper healing. I believe that a faith based, qualified therapist can offer a lot toward personal healing, if needed. Whether or not you wish to seek out a counselor is something that you will have to reflect upon. There is no shame in asking for help.
I invite you to step forward.
Come to the embrace of the Father.
Surrender to God.
Ask for forgiveness.
Remember the whole point is to arrive at the beginning of life, a new life in faith and trust.
ENDNOTES:
[i] The fallen archangel is not necessarily a spiritual entity. It may be the slope of self-deception or being fooled by cleaver words leading to one’s downfall.
[ii] The impression isn’t the literal definition of fall, as having dropped down. It is a reference to a breach in our growth process, so a misdirection of the mind occurs.
[iii] Judgement is not to be mistaken with shaming. Its purpose is to reveal what needs to be worked on; an awakening of a conscious state to realize the distance between where you are and where you should be.